stage-fright / glow
|I have stage-fright. Teaching starts today, you see. I have stage-fright far worse than when I present a paper in front of a few hundred people at a conference, even though I taught all last semester, and loved it, and the stuff I’m planning on doing today is based on a recipe I’ve used three or four times before with various groups of students. I’m convinced that only two students will turn up and this will prove the basic untenability of my future career in academia.
Yes, I know. Calm down.
There are twelve students tentatively enrolled in the LMS, so far. They have names I can’t connect with faces: Paul, Kevin, Vidar, Maj. I wish students had orientation meetings for their lecturers. “Hi, I’m Paul (or Kevin or Vidar or Maj) and my goals as a student are X, Y and Z. I’m going to be in your course and in yours too.” I suppose that’s part of what we’re doing today, actually.
I know that once I know the group I’ll be fine, and love teaching again like I did last semester. But (this is to you experienced teachers out there) do teachers feel this scared at the start of every semester?
|I’m all aglow. Teaching starts today, you see. I feel that same excitement that I feel at conferences, that thrill at meeting new thoughts and approaches to the world. I taught all last semester, and loved it, and the stuff I’m planning on doing today has worked well before and I love the texts we’ll be talking about. Do you know, I’ve been astounded at how I enjoy teaching. I like research too, but teaching is for me a real reason to stay in academia.
Yes, I know. Such enthusiasm can’t last, they say.
There are twelve students tentatively enrolled in the LMS, so far. I can’t connect their names with faces but I’ve heard names like these before, reassuring me that soon I’ll know their owners: Paul, Kevin, Vidar, Maj. I wonder whether many of them know each other?
I’m looking forward to getting to know the students and their thoughts and finding out their interests and methods.
[My feelings are as separate and simultaneous as two columns]